I AM AFRAID

I am afraid of the future. I am afraid of what will happen to hubby and I. I am afraid of getting sick, frail and dependent. I am afraid of hubby getting sick, frail and dependent on me. I am plain afraid. I know worrying about the future spoils my today but what can I do? My mind doesn't stop! It wakes me at night. I keep thinking of my friends who are in sad situations. Poor Ida!!!!!!! Her husband has been in the hospital for months. I wish I could be there more for her but I live far away and can't drive. JUST A FEW MORE DAYS!!!!!!!! Ruthie? Her hubby has been sick most of their marriage. How does she keep smiling? Natalie? Her hubby is finally at Maimonedes. Finally Eileen who is dying of cancer. I would like to be there for all of them but it will take a toll on me.